I'm Over It!

I don't care if its not even "officially" winter yet.... I'M OVER IT!

Two storms in three days! Its ridiculous and obnoxious. My car is a big igloo and I can't lift my arms higher than my shoulders from all the shoveling. Its not nice white fluffy snow either, its chunks of dirty, icy, gross, salty snow.

I can usually hold off until after the holiday festivities until my S.A.D kicks in, but this year its hitting me full force way too early. What we have right now is the snow that lingers, dirty and icy for weeks and weeks until you can't remember what it looks like without snow. My commute time has doubled seeing as I have to shuffle like an 80 year old along the icy paths to the T. I split open my elbow the other night as I slipped taking out the trash and whacked my elbow on the shingled side of my apartment building to catch myself. I've ruined my old Uggs, which by the way, DO NOT keep out water. If Santa knows what's good for her, there will be snow boots under the tree.

I haven't written in a while, and I don't think its because nothing has been happening, which is the case half of the time, but because I haven't been able to focus. I've given in to writing a rambling, bitching post, because I miss seeing new things on here.

The last post was a quote from G. The past three months have been a rough journey with him, and recently he's decided to take a post oversees for a year. In two weeks, most of the difficulty that is our relationship, or lack there of, will be eradicated. I don't really know what I'm doing in this situation, but he seemed like he needed a friend, and I can never be that person who turns her back on people. Maybe I should be, but I haven't gotten there yet.

I like to think he appreciated it, but I really don't think he does. I'm just another nuisance in his life, but he doesn't think twice about calling me and venting about the girl. I only get annoyed or hurt when he doesn't treat ME like a friend, but I've learned that most people in his situation can't see beyond themselves. (cough-J all last year- cough).

Despite all this I'm still looking forward to Christmas. Work is busy busy busy, which is good because I can pick up some Overtime, which I desperately need.

D is still in the back ground, but far back, but to be honest, I don't really have time to see him and the snow makes everything difficult.

Just working through stuff. Gotta get my act together for the New Year.

So I Don't Forget

"I know this is hard on you because I never cared enough about you to be this upset over you."